If you had asked me two years ago what I thought about meditation, you would have got a scoff, a sniff and even perhaps an eyeball roll.
I had had some experience of trying it before but I often came out wondering what visualising, body scanning and breathing actually did for me (other than the obvious!!).
What I hadn’t appreciated was the calm I often felt during and after doing it. Me thinks now my head was probably just buzzing a bit much for me to see the wood for the trees!! Continue reading Meditating like a mad woman!
“Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become”
After ditching cardio for 3 weeks to try to allow this body to calm down (with mixed and not very successful results I have to say), I resolved to do SOMETHING. After all the pain my bloody leg muscles went through in Sept and Oct when I restarted exercise I can’t put myself in a position where I have to go through that again. Continue reading Bite sized cardio
“I may not know where I’m going, but I’ll be damned if I’m going back where I’ve been”
What is it with tourists?
As I was cycling along today (which I am meant to do everyday – hmm subject of another post) the inevitable happened. A nice looking couple, obviously from my home country England, judging by the accents, decided to ask me for directions to the beach. Me – who obviously just looks like I’m out for a morning meander on my cruiser bike rather than the huffing, puffing lard arse that I was feeling. Continue reading The perpetual cyclist
After 4 months on Florinef we decided to part company. The last month has been too hard – too many headaches, too much fatigue and a blood pressure that was a little high for Spesh’s liking. So I’m now week two, another two to go before we possibly try Midodrine, and it’s turning out to be a bloody nightmare. Mad swings from high to low blood pressure giving me all sorts of grief. Within one day last week I was fluctuating between 85/65 and 150/110. Continue reading Up and down like a yoyo
My wham bam health issues appeared in November 2014. However, looking back, before my ‘tsunami’ of symptoms hit, a slow trickle of odd symptoms had appeared. I’d been under quite a bit of stress from a job for a period of 6 months and I had a few odd, isolated bodily symptoms occur (which I can now recognise as the early warning signs). I had weird aches in my hands, I was thirstier than normal, I was wired and tired, I got the shakes when under pressure and I started getting weird nightmares on top of insomnia (Dennis the Menace flying spider kind of nightmares). I then experienced the ‘oh god I feel shit I must be unfit’ after pilates (come on?) and I had my first proper almighty so-called panic attack (an ambulance job). But many of these were simply explained away as stress related reactions.
Then I sealed my fate by visiting some hot springs for the day in late November 2014. Continue reading The poo truck